A while back, I was taking a walk around my neighborhood. As I walked down my street, looking at the houses and cars, I had this thought…
“I want more money so I can move out of this crappy neighborhood.”
I immediately thought, “Wow, where did that come from? This neighborhood is nice…yeah sure it’s nice but I want to be surrounded by rich people. People who have accomplished something and make money.”
Let the internal dialogue begin as I talk to myself to figure out what is going on. Buckle up.
“Do you want a brand new car?”
“No, I am fine with mine but maybe one that doesn’t breakdown right away.”
“Ok, do you want a bigger house?”
”Sure but honestly ours is fine. Maybe something with some land or space.”
“Ok, so what’s the issue?”
”Well, I heard this NF song lyric where he said, ‘Buy groceries and not worry about it.’ That would be awesome to be able to do that.”
“So you don’t want to have to do a budget? Or worry about a budget?”
”Well, I would still budget, so maybe where the budget isn’t so tight.”
Then this thought hit me:
”I want more money so I don’t have to rely on anyone.”
”Oh ok, I get it now. You don’t want to have faith that God will provide, which He has, you want to do it all yourself?”
“Dang. Umm, yes, brain that is spot-on…”
Now, slightly dazed, I went into my house to ponder this new revelation.
Yes, I want more money. Who doesn’t? It would be nice not to have to stress or worry about all my needs being met.
Is that wrong?
No, it’s a good thing to provide for yourself and your family, but you need to check your motives.
God will provide because I have seen Him do it time and time again. I simply need to be a steward of how much or how little He gives. Either way, it will always be enough.